Thursday, July 24, 20089:51 PM
Once for Twice.
I've not been going to church.
I can really feel the distance between me and God.
To others, im not going to church because of NDP on Saturday,
which ends at about 11.30pm.
But deep inside my heart,
I know it's all a facade.
It's not cause im tired, it's because I dont want to.
I can seriously notice the change in me.
Im so much weaker, without God's guidance.
Weak, as in a sense of my personality, trust and faith.
It's hard to imagine that people from non-christian families are so devoted to God.
The way they keep persuading their parents to allow them to go church,
the very strong faith, trust and love for Him,
the very close distance from Him,
the knowledge of Him.
It makes me really guilty.
Some people have to go through multiple arguments/quarrels/chaos or even fights with their parents to be allowed to go to church, to worship him.
Some even has to hide their love, trust and faith in God from their parents.
They cant even love God openly.
Some people has to hide from their parents that they've been going to church.
But me?
Im given everything a devoted Christian wants to have.
An all-christian family.
Parents who encourage me to let God be the glory.
To let God be my pillar of strength.
To let God guide me.
To believe in Him.
Why aint I treasuring all these?
People around the world are wishing for all these so much.
Im given everything and yet im finding lame excuses to skip church.
What's wrong with me?
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