AMANDA

2009-10-02T21:14:00.002+08:00

NOT GONNA USE BLOGGER ANYMORE!!

SWITCHED TO TUMBLRRRR!!

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2009-10-02T17:57:00.001+08:00

This dramatic video was captured in the Bronx by New York's CBS 2 when good samaritan Billy Cretan heard screams coming from a burning building and rushed inside to only escape from a window carrying 4-year-old Christopher Ramcharran.

When Cretan saw smoke and flames pouring from the apartment above his store his instincts took over.

"I kicked in gear, put the ladder down and I went upstairs and did the best I could," Cretan said.

Cretan climbed into the burning building through the fire escape and found 4-year-old Christopher Ramcharran choking on smoke.

"I felt his heartbeat; it was faint but all right. I made sure I protected him with the curtain 'because they were throwing glass from on top of the stairs," Cretan said, referring to the firefighters worked feverishly above.

Cretan used his body to shield the boy from smoke and flames, and carried his limp body down the fire escape.

2009-09-28T23:28:00.001+08:00

I got raped by mosquitoes in bed last night.
Now I have like.. 10 bites all over my legs and arms.
RAD.

I've been studying for EOYs, yay :D
And I can't bloody copy in Chemistry.
So confusing ):
Same for lights (physics) as well :(
Gotta buck up on them.

Oh yes, show you guys a video.
It's really funny!

WATCHWATCHWATCH!

If you missed it like me when I watched it for the first time, it's actually like this. This orange jersey guy is trying to score a goal but failed right? Check out the blue jersey guy behind him after a few seconds. The blue jersey guy was actually laughing at him becaue he didn't score the goal. Then after that, the orange jersey guy got another chance to score a goal and this time he succeeded! Okay, then you can see for yourself what happened. LOL he actually got a yellow card!! Poor fella.

2009-09-25T19:15:00.002+08:00

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE BEYONCE!!!!

Did you cry? :')

2009-09-20T22:45:00.003+08:00

Midnight supper in Malaysia with parents some time ago - GOOD!

Bro and dad are jumping up and down watching the match between Manchester United and Manchester City.

Guys.

I'm glad they don't drink though! My uncle can drink CARTONS of Heineken while watching soccer. Poor liver of his.

P/S. I hope ManU wins! Though I don't watch soccer. LOL

2009-09-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

I.am.so.terribly.afraid.

:'(

2009-09-15T18:43:00.003+08:00

She's scandal-free. She's beautiful. She's classy. She's elegant. She's got curves. She's talented. She is AHHH-mazing! Love Beyonce! :D

"Next time Kanye West wins some award, everyone should bum rush the stage!"
-Perez Hilton

HAHA!

P/S. Just realised that my previous post has Taylor Swift in it too! Cool, I didn't know about the whole VMA scene at that time!

2009-09-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA! OMG, am I the only one who finds this hilarious??

Anyway, my mum washed my Winnie the pooh bolster :((((( It's crying in the washing machine now :((((( My mum thinks it's ultra stinky but I love its smell! :((((( I'm gonna suffer from insomnia tonight without it :((((( And guess what? The water used to soak my bolster turned blacky! HAHAH imagine, all that bacteria!

2009-09-10T16:35:00.008+08:00

ELLEN DEGENERES, THE NEW AMERICAN IDOL JUDGE?!

I'M GONNA LOVE AI SO MUCH MORE :D

2009-09-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

2009-09-09T00:56:00.001+08:00

Bloody hell. I'm in grave danger in my room.

P/S. Uh oh.. I think some people misunderstood my previous post.

2009-09-06T22:22:00.004+08:00

Which DBSK member will be your hubby?

Haha, I'd love to meet those who actually took that quiz.

2009-09-05T17:55:00.001+08:00

My results are so bloody sucky. :/ I'm gonna off the computer soon and get to my homework. Really needa study asap. Clar-kee-kuay with Stella and Zicheng on Monday. YESSSS. :D

2009-09-01T15:26:00.002+08:00

Some random person stole my mum's umbrella which was left ouside the house cause it was wet.

Well, It's okay.

It's a cranky one. It opens up by itself.

Haha, and did I mention it's the 7th month?

That asshole's gonna freak himself/herself out.

Karma.

2009-08-30T13:29:00.002+08:00

Two Names You Go By

1. Amanda
2. Maize

Two Parts of Your Heritage
1. Chinese
2. Chinese

Two things that scare you
1. Clowns
2. Lullabies

Two of Your Everyday Essentials
1. Music
2. Food

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. White tee
2. Grey skinnies

Two of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists
1. The Maine
2. Vampire Weekend

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. Listening to music
2. Eating

Two Things You Want Really Badly
1. Good results
2. Revamp room

Two Places You Want to go on Vacation
1. Arizona
2. Paris

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die
1. See the world
2. Find my soulmate

Two Things You Are Thinking About Now
1. Popeye's later!
2. How to improve on my chinese

Two Stores You Shop At
1. Any
2. Any

Two favorite web sites
1. YouTube
2. Twitter

Two Favorite Sports
1. Cycling
2. Swimming

Two People who will fill this out
idk?

Two things you did last night
1. Watch MJ on tv
2. Watch kevjumba's videos

Two shows you like to watch
1. American Idol
2. The Simpsons

Two places you like to go to
1. Town
2. Home

Two Favorite People
1. Too many
2. To mention

Two Favorite Subjects In School
1. English
2. Biology

Two Favorite Places to eat
1. Macdonalds
2. Popeye's

Two People that live in your house
1. Mum
2. Dad

Two things you like about yourself (physical)
1. Eyes
2. Legs (HAHAHAHAH!)

Two things you ate today
1. Nothing
2. Nothing

Two people you last talked to
1. Mum
2. Dad

2009-08-28T18:18:00.001+08:00

My head hurts now :( I'm happy because there's no school all the way till Wednesday and Monday's the Teachers' Day celebration. I'm sad because of sucky results. I'm angry because someone don't take me seriously. Grrr. I'm human, you know? *rolls eyes*

2009-08-26T20:55:00.002+08:00

My brother just asked the most ridiculous question, ever.

"Do women fart?"

2009-08-26T18:08:00.002+08:00

My mum looks creepy here, but she's the best, I swear. I gained and I lost. It looks like I've lost more than what I've gained. But after thinking for a long time, I actually gained so much more. It's not gonna be another useless, senseless motivation for myself. I don't know what's it gonna be. But I know it's something good. Something good will come out of it. I believe :) Oh yes, a gigantic THANKS to those who cheered me up. :)

"Do a little each day and by the time the test comes, you'll know what to do."
"Your final goal is O level."
"Learning is by acculumating."
"Monsters don't cry."
"Cheer up!"
"There's still time to catch up."

2009-08-25T21:39:00.002+08:00

Dissected a sheep's heart for Biology practical today. Fun as hell. Interesting experience. I can now officially state that I've cut a sheep's heart before. :D I want more of such practicals plsssss. Haha, I sound sick. The first photo was taken from the bio TB. Wanted to make a comparison with the real one. And needless to say, it's exactly the same. LOL. Imma finish up my Chemistry MCQs and get to bed. I'm so tired today!

2009-08-24T23:09:00.001+08:00

Today was way cool. A bat (yes, a bat) flew into our classroom in the midst of English lesson. I was like, stunned. So I just sat there, wide-eyed at the bat which flew 3-4 rounds around the classroom while the others were shrieking and ducking. Ms Chen covered her head with a piece of paper. LOL. How many people can actually raise their hands and say "I've been in a classroom with a bat flying around before"? Huh huh huh? Hahah, I know you think it's cool! Just admit it. :P

2009-08-18T21:56:00.002+08:00

A black car whizzed past me. Apart from their colour, all cars looked the same to me. They all had four wheels and moved faster than trishaws.

She tightened her grip on my hand. In her other hand she held a bag of groceries. "We're having kai lan for dinner tonight," I thought.

Her strong grip caused my arm to ache, and I wondered for a moment which she held tighter: me or the groceries. She pulled me across the busy road. I scampered along, trying to keep up with her while gripping a melting strawberry ice cream cone.

She walked quickly. My young legs lacked the power to keep up with the pace of a hardened, strong, determined woman. Despite her age, her physical vigour was comparable to anyone I knew, although my social circles at the age of four were considerably limited. She was a Superwoman who single-handedly raised eight children. She was a lowly paid washerwoman, working extra hours every day to ensure each and every one of her children got an education. She tried to improve her children's future, a dollar at a time, one soiled garment at a time.

She is my Granny. I am her ah hock, her grandson. When I was growing up, I lived with her on weekdays, while my parents worked long hours.

Life is better now. Both of us enjoy the luxuries of ice cream cones and trishaw rides during our peaceful days together. The only tension we experience comes from the television set every afternoon, while we speculate about the fate of the characters in the drama serials. With our eyes glued to the goggle box, we munch on wah ko kueh (cupcakes) and slurp her favourite drink, Sarsi.

When I was little, my world revolved around Granny. I felt blessed, for all the word "blessed" stood for in my tiny mind. I felt blessed that I was one of the three things that would have her attention daily - the other two were the television and the rice cooker. She found happiness in providing me with ice cream, wah ko kuehs and delicious soups. She took care of my nosebleeds, high temperatures and bruises (caused by my "adventures of the ninja who saved the world"), in addition to my occasional tantrums.

It's hard to say what love is - the meaning of love seemed to differ from drama serial to drama serial - but in my world, she is love.

A black car whizzes past me. It's a Mercedes sedan. As I watch the cars drive past, I tighten my grip on her arm. I took care that my grip does not hurt her. I look at her. Her strong, determined gaze is gone, replaced by a timid, lost expression. As soon as the road is clear, we cross the street. Her pace, albeit slow, is firm and steady. I raise my hand to warn oncoming drivers of our presence.

She asks me where Daddy - her son and my father - is.

"At work. He will be back this evening," I reply. He still works long hours.

"OK," she says.

She's 84 years old now, every single bit showing on her face. Granny has moved in with my family, which now includes my younger brother. Everyone in the family, including aunties and an uncle, helps with her care. I work as a paralegal in Singapore and spend time with her when I can.

Despite all the changes, some things stay the same: I have a strawberry ice cream cone in my other hand, but I am sure to hold on to her tighter than my ice cream. She is still Superwoman to me, as she holds on to her can of Sarsi in her other hand, swallowing big gulps of the carbonated fizz to satisfy her thirst.

I have not known any other lady, regardless of age, who depended so much on carbonated soft drinks for gastronomical satisfaction, and my social circles have widened considerably since I was four.

"Where's Daddy?" she asks again.

"At work."

She nods silently as I unlock the gate. She enters the house, not bothering to turn on the television set or check on the rice cooker. Before entering her room, she turns to me. Her confuseed eyes look at me, as if searching for a bruise or spotting an unexpected nosebleed.

"Where's Daddy?" she enquires.

I hold her hand and reply, "At work."

She enters her room and lies down, resting her tired legs.

In the comfort of my room, I lay on my bed. I reminisce about my childhood - the wah ko kuehs, drama serials and trishaw rides. They are memories of us together. My memories are entrenched deeply within me, but Granny's are being consumed, figment by figment, by Alzheimer's.

I ache at the thought of Alzheimer's eroding her memories, along with me in them. Anger flushes through me. The Alzheimer's monster affects me too, leaving a gaping hole in my life, a void that I am at a loss to fill. Against rationality I feel failure. Failure to protect her and her memories of our times together, and everything else she had lived for. I failed to protect my Granny.

The gentle knock on my door brings me out of my thoughts and onto my feet. I open the door to find her looking at me.

"Where's Daddy?" she asks.

A single tear runs from my eye down to my lips, where I can taste my own helplessness and anguish. She raises her frail, thin arm, gently wiping away the tear, while I answer, "At work."

Contented to know her son's whereabouts for now, she turns into her room, seeking to rest her tired bones and weary heart.

2009-08-15T18:17:00.007+08:00

A BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE FOR :

the wishes,
the hugs,
the handshakes,
the presents,
the cards,
the little notes,
the birthday songs

I LOVE YOU ALL! :D

2009-08-13T00:04:00.002+08:00

15, there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose yourself within a morning star
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you've only got a 100 years to live

2009-08-12T19:16:00.002+08:00

Stressed :( Physics and humanities tests flunk alreadyyyyy~ Goner. I just randomly flipped to a page from a random book and saw a rather good paragraph that can be used as an introduction for compositions. Weee! I'm hungryyy... and the smell of my mum's nasi lemak is super enticing. ^^ Anyway I love life! WEEE! OH YES! I forgot, I watch a lot of Blues Clues, Dora The Explorer and Noddy The Toyland a lot when I was little too! :D heeeee.

2009-08-10T23:07:00.003+08:00

1. I've come to realize that my hair:
gives me alot of problems.

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
I sound rather fluent.

4. I've come to realize that all I really need:
is rather hard to get.

5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
many friendships from primary school.

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
I go for a haircut.

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk:
I will laugh uncontrollably (that applies when I'm sober too. lol)

8. I've come to realize that money:
is important and unimportant as well.

9. I've come to realize that when I get old:
I will not have a single strand of black hair.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
a girl with countless imperfections. (couldn't have said it better.)

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
you.

12. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was:
a few days ago.

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
makes up 80% of my life.

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
my eyes are droopy.

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
have to say goodnight to my parents.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
school tomorrow.

17. I've come to realize that my life:
is not as bad as I think it is.

18. I've come to realize that my favourite drink is:
iced green tea.

19. I've come to realize that today I:
postponed tuition for a rather good reason.

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
worry about my incomplete math homework.

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
stress my ass out in school.

22. I've come to realize that I really want to:
live in the US.

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is:
you.

24. I've come to realize relationships are:
nice and yet tiring.

25. I've come to realize that love:
exists.

26. I've come to realize my best guy friend(s):
Mr You-know-who-you-are. *wink*

27. I've come to realize my best girl friend(s):
Miss You-know-who-you-are. *wink*

28. I've come to realize food is:
my way of venting my emotions.

29: I've come to realize that this summer:
-

30. I've come to realize heartbreak is:
rather common.

31. I've come to realize that the last person i liked:
is not worth liking at all.

32.I've come to realize that my sister(s):
-

33. I've come to realize that crying:
is a good way to feel better.

34. I've come to realize that death:
is not what I'm afraid of the most.

35. I've come to realize that if I'm sick:
my mum will be with me 24/7. (<3)

36. I've come to realize when I'm bored:
I search for new music.

2009-08-10T13:52:00.004+08:00

64 ZOO LANE!

BANANAS IN PYJAMAS!

TELETUBBIES. HAHAHAH!

DRAGON TALES!

BEAR IN THE BIG BLUE HOUSE!

MADELINE!

MY CHILDHOOD SHOWS (:
MANY PEOPLE DON'T SEEM TO WATCH THE SHOWS I WATCH WHEN I WAS MUCH YOUNGER ):

DO YOU WATCH ANY OF THE SHOWS ABOVE??!!

2009-08-09T18:28:00.004+08:00

POST DELETED!
IN CASE ANY OF YOU TRIES TO BITE MY HEAD OFF.
HEH.

2009-08-08T20:34:00.006+08:00

NDP'09 (:

2009-08-08T12:06:00.002+08:00

Loveeeeeeee this photo! :D Hate that half of my face is cut though! NDP is over! I survived through the dance! Whew. I know I danced like shit lah but whatever. Mr Ridzuan (anyhow spelling) said that the most important thing is to have fun and I did. So sthp. Oh yes, and we celebrated Yongler's birthday yesterday! Photos are still with Stella! Will post them up soon (: And I'm meeting Angel later on. Weeeee! Stella couldn't come ): Term tests have already started and yet I'm here relaxing like mad. Shit! Today's the last day I will enjoy myself. STUDYYYYY!

2009-08-06T19:08:00.003+08:00

I was sleeping outside my class after school today while waiting for Stella's higher mother tongue class to end. (I didn't sleep in class because my class was occupied) KimPeng was with me but she was reading her storybook. And when I finally woke up, I thought she left without a goodbye but then I spotted that piece of note lying beside me on the ground. :) Oh oh oh! I did quite well for my geography and social studies test. Happy happy! Heh. Please don't get me wrong, I'm not boasting. Just that doing well is such a rare situation for me that I'm so super happy that I am finally in one. Anyway, today was rad! Woo! :) Loving today!

Dear God, please let every day be like today. Amen.

2009-08-04T22:35:00.002+08:00

Been hanging out with them alot :) Love those girls, man! :))) Anyway, Stella told me about my horoscope this morning. And hell, it was fugging true. Everything came true later in the afternoon x.x And trust me, it was nothing good, nothing good at all. But I guess it's good for Stella cause it's kinda like a form of entertainment for her! RIGHT STELLA?! LOL. OHHHH! It's the English Term Test tomorrowwww!

*waves arms in the air and shrieks like a bimbo*

2009-08-03T22:16:00.011+08:00

:'(

What's the use of typing dozens of words when just three simple symbols can just cover up for everything?

If you don't give in your best, then you sure as hell don't deserve my best effort.

2009-07-31T21:25:00.004+08:00

Never... never drink chocolate milk (Dutch Lady, for my case) on an empty stomach. Now I feel like puking.. great. Anyway, you don't hear this from me often. BUT HELL ALL THE TESTS THIS WEEK HAVE BEEN PRETTY MUCH OF A BREEZE!! I wouldn't say things like "It's so darn easy!" or "I'm so gonna get an A."
Cause when things turn out the other way round, I don't know where I can dispose of my face. :) Oh ya, chinese teacher caught me for my fringe
:(((((((

2009-07-29T18:25:00.003+08:00

I've been very happy lately! Weeeeeee! Everything is going well for me :) Except for chinese.. But who gives a damn about that lol. Oh yes, Harry Potter was pretty disappointing... :( But the hotness of Tom Felton, Rupert Grint and Emma Watson made it a weeny bit worthwhile. Hahaha and guess what? Before the movie, my family, relatives and I were lol-ing at this transexual aka ahgua. My perception of all transexuals (from male to female) being hot, totally changed. You should have seen him/her. It was HORRIBLE! I know i'm really mean.. but really :( You know, most transexuals really look like that gender when he/she is actually not right? But this girl.. no.. this guy.. ah whatever. That person is OBVIOUSLY A MAN! -.- He/she was wearing this really tight purple leather jacket and reallyyyyy tight denim shorts with knee-high black boots. That's not the end. He/she smiled cheekily at everyone who looked at him/her. HE DID THAT TO ME! Eeew.. My 11 year old cousin told me that before I came, there was this bunch of gangsters who laughed openly at the transexual and that transexual actually grinned and waved at them and that apparently scared them off and they ran away. ROFL! I wish I could've witnessed that. That'd be the funniest thing ever. And my brother scolded me for not taking photo of that transexual. And I'm sure you guys must be cursing me about not taking any too. But seriously, you won't dare to, just like me. If he/she spots me secretly taking a photo of him/her, you'd never know what he/she will do. Thinking about what he/she might do just completely freaks me out. But I can for sure say he/she had the looks of a COMPLETE late 40s man with the figure of a 1.8m female model. His/her legs were long and slender like mad. lol.

P/S. I received flying kisses today from lovely people. Hehe.

2009-07-26T12:16:00.002+08:00

This bag of cranes can fetch up to about 9kg of free rice for the less fortunate :)

I feel stressed. What a joke. But really :( Monday, chinese formal letter test and chemistry test. Tuesday situational writing test and E.maths test. Wednesday geography test. Thursday social studies test. Friday A.maths test. How much suckier can it get? I know i'm not the only one going through all these and others' situations are prolly much worse and that I ain't fit to complain. But shut up, I still want to. Anyway, yesterday night was fun! Will blog about it soon when the photos come to me. Harry Potter with family and relatives later in the evening. Weeeeehooooo!

2009-07-23T21:25:00.004+08:00

Hello! :) Today was alright. To be honest, the dancing for NDP is kinda fun. So please, if you're from ytss, dont laugh at me when you see how ridiculous I look dancing okay? I cant dance for nuts ): So dont spoil my fun! Hahah. And anyway I've been failing alot of tests ): Dont get me wrong, I really did study! Maybe not hard enough.. I'm gonna work harder. This is the millionth time I've said it but oh well... Oh yes, many people have been down with fever and other illnesses these days. A "get well soon" for these people! :)

2009-07-21T18:49:00.002+08:00

I didn't notice this until much later.
Hehe, thanks girl. <3

P/S. Oh yes, thanks to Stella for the cute bottle of MnMs too! :D

2009-07-19T22:41:00.001+08:00

Today my dad shouted at me for a minor reason.
So I was like damn pissed and I told my mum that he has PMS.
And my mum told my daddddd!!!!

My dad thought PMS stands for :

PERMANENT

MENTAL

STRESS

2009-07-17T22:47:00.004+08:00

I'm starting with the girl in the mirror.
I'm asking her to change her ways.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

YAHOOOOO.
I'M SO HAPPY THAT I BARELY UPDATED. IT MEANS I CAN PRACTISE SELF-CONTROL.
LOL.

I FEEL GOOD. LIKE REALLY RELAXED.
NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!
WEEEEEE.

AND I'VE BEEN WORKING HARD.
I'VE BEEN CATCHING UP FINE (:

MS TAN ASKED THOSE WHO FAILED THE "INIDICES AND SURDS" TEST TO GIVE HER A 500-WORD REFLECTION.
I GROANED AT FIRST.
BUT I'M HAPPY I DID IT.
CAUSE PENNING THOSE WORDS DOWN REALLY MADE A POSITIVE IMPACT ON ME
(:

AND YOU KNOW WHAT?
FOR THE ENTIRE 2 WEEKS, MY WOMB HAS BEEN HURTING.
NON-STOP EVERY SINGLE DAY.
IT SUCKED REAL BAD.
IT'S REALLY PAINFUL ):
I THINK SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH MY WOMB.

MAMA'S GONNA BRING ME TO GO SEE A DOC TOMORROW.
A FEMALE DOC.
HAHAHA (:

I HOPE I'M FINE.

2009-07-13T22:58:00.004+08:00

I'M HAPPY TODAY!

Like those days, when you feel totally carefree, without needing to worry about any single nonsense thrown at you.

And every single thing, even down to the most insignificant ones, just seem to go the right way for you.

It's like the world's finally on your side.

Sadly, they come only once in a blue moon. at least for me

BUT YAY IM LIKE REALLY HAPPY TODAY.

Except for one teeny weeny bit that dragged my mood down a little.
To others, it may be nothing.
But to me.. :/

Urgh, I'll just forget about it.

Anyway, uhm, don't expect much posts from me these few days.

HAH!

2009-07-11T16:56:00.007+08:00

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just smile

2009-07-07T22:48:00.002+08:00

I'd rather feel disappointed than insecure.

I'd rather feel angry than insecure.

I'd rather feel stupid than insecure.

I'd rather feel lonely than insecure.

I'd rather feel frustrated than insecure.

I'd rather feel pathetic than insecure.

I'd rather feel useless than insecure.

I'd rather feel upset than insecure.

I'd rather feel dumb than insecure.

...

Nothing but insecure...
please.. )':

2009-07-06T22:48:00.002+08:00

I.would.like.to.rant.

*forces a smile*

Right, so I've been getting crap comments from my bro.

"You're just like the media. At least along that line. You're downloading and listening to Michael Jackson's songs just because he's dead. You would always refuse to listen to them whenever I asked you to in the past. Hypocrite."

no, of course he didn't speak in proper english. i edited it, but the same meaning of it remains.

*inhales deeply*

Not gonna lie, I wasn't a big fan of Michael Jackson.
Note that I used "wasn't".

Anyway, it's precisely because he's dead, that made me wanna download and listen to his songs, to find out exactly how legendary he is.
And it's also precisely because I did that only after his death, that makes me wanna slap myself.

Note : Even before I found out about most of his songs, I already knew he makes amazing music. Just that I didn't have the urge to go download, listen to and explore more of his songs.

So yes, I've made my point.

1) I wasn't a big fan of MJ before his death, not gonna lie. But I didn't hate him. So in what way was I a hypocrite, huh huh huh?

2) I regret not finding out more about MJ's music before his death. I wanna slap myself for that.

P/S. If my bro doesn't see this, that'd be wasted. But yet again if he does, imma get hell from him. But who cares?

2009-07-05T17:28:00.008+08:00

My mommeh cooked crabs!!!!!!!!!!

CHILLI crabs, to be exact (:

HELLO CRABS!

AWAIT YOUR DOOM! >:D

Lethal weapon - chopstick

Urghh.. nasty.

Waiting patiently to be fried :D

WEEEEEEEE~~~

End product! *licks lips*

WARNING!!!
SALIVA-INDUCING CONTENT!!

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P/S. I created this post with no ill intentions. *wink*

2009-07-04T15:42:00.003+08:00

Couldn't have put it better.
Hell yeah.
F-ing hyprocrites.

P/S. To you nutheads who think this video is against MJ, watch the video again. It's defending MJ against the media.

2009-07-04T13:23:00.003+08:00

Uhm, you know, I was just wondering...

You know those normal black coloured hairclips we girls always use in school?
They're deliberately made to be BLACK in colour to camouflage with our black hair right?

But what about caucasians?
Those blondies.
Are there actually blonde coloured hair clips??

LOL, this is totally random.
Sorry.

2009-07-03T20:25:00.007+08:00

FINALLY I AM SO OVER WITH THE AEM COURSE!
NO OFFENCE BUT I REALLY CAN'T STAND THE GUY LECTURER.
SO RUDE.
BUT NEVER MIND.

How the lab looks like.
Note : Main attention on lab, not that woman over there.
LOL!

When you "push" it, water comes out.
Eye wash. LOL, cool right?

Tissue supplied in the lab.
According to the lecturer, they're very high-class because there's no fibre.
The dusty white stuff that comes out when you tear/rub tissue.

My temperature in the lab. No joke.
Sooooooooo cold!

Timo's inflated glove.

Compressable pipette thingy.
Nothing interesting except for the way they look.

There's iron in these solutions.

Chromatography under UV light.

Chromatography stained with KmNO.
Me and Joanna's work okay! And the lecturer said it was good.
YAY! Tyco-ness all the way eh, Joanna? :D

Me doing a small part of an experiment.

Okay, I know this post is ultra boring.
I'm a boring person when I'm tired.
So I shall end with my favourite photo! :D

NICE RIGHT NICE RIGHT?!?!
COOL RIGHT COOL RIGHT?!?!
SAY YES!

I LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :D

2009-07-02T20:22:00.004+08:00

Me doing an experiment during the AEM course :D

There's a short test for it tomorrow after school.
Damn, I don't wanna study for it!
But I guess I better do... ):

(edited)

Decided to post more photos since I managed to find them. LOL

Aiyoooo Peimin covered her name! ):

This woman talk damn loud in the lab one loh.
So embarrassing!

2009-06-30T21:33:00.002+08:00

You know what??

For like, the millionth time -

I AM MOTIVATED, DETERMINED AND ALL GEARED UP!

hope it'll last

2009-06-29T20:18:00.002+08:00

Still feeling extremely weak.
I hate medicine which cause drowsiness!
So annoying.

I thought I had H1N1. LOL
But seriously, I had more than half of the symptoms.

Fever
Flu
Mild sore throat
Cough

Went to visit the doctor who just prescribed me some normal medication and nothing else.
Zzz waste of money.
I have the same medication I received last year from the same doctor.
I was still worrying about being sent to the hospital.
yeah right...

Anyway, a big THANKYOU to those lovely people who showered me with so much care and concern.
It's nice to know people actually care.
Haha. (:

Oh yes, the doctor gave me an MC for tomorrow.
Do you think I should go to school?

2009-06-28T18:23:00.004+08:00

Stumbled upon this basker outside AMKhub with my family last night.
We bought tickets for Transformers 2 (it sucks big time)
And my, this basker rocks big time please.

It's 'Hotel California' by Eagles.
Aint his voice just wonderful?
I think he sounds exactly like the original singer.
A pity I didn't manage to record the chorus.
Wanted to kill my bro so badly for calling at exactly the moment he was about to start the chorus.
Darn it.

Oh yes, you can hear my voice in there.
*shy face*

We saw his wife who was sitting behind him while he was singing.
Then suddenly she stood beside me and I felt a nudge.
His wife told me to ask her husband to sing 'Imagine' by John Lennon O.O

And I was like 'Nooo! I don't dare!'
LOL

So in the end his wife helped me to dedicate it.

You can actually hear my voice :X

After he sang 'Imagine', she asked me to dedicate 'Hero'
Omg.
But this time my mum went to dedicate it. LOL
My brave woman! :D
HAHAH

Oh yes, did I mention that the woman actually isn't his wife?
LOL :XXX
She was working for him, actually.
As in like get drinks for him and help him pack his stuffs.
So yeah, big error. HAHA!

Anyway, I recorded him singing 'Can't help falling in love with you'.

Enjoy!

P/S. The woman told me that he was blind at the age of 3. He grew up in some association thingy for the blind. He's Malay but he can't speak Malay cause he grew up with caucasians from the same association. Thats.. thats kinda cool..

2009-06-26T19:45:00.002+08:00

Humongous loss :'(

RIP MJ!

2009-06-25T19:59:00.003+08:00

Last last night, my family and I went for Belated Pop's Day dinner at...

SAKURAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!

Hmm, the first thing that comes to your mind is buffet, I suppose?
But weirdly for me, the first thing that comes to my mind is...

"$24"

LOL. So expensive for one person :/

But still, we enjoyed the dinner thoroughly.
All of us were sharing food here and there which was really nice.
I don't have good vocabulary.
So all I can say is that the feeling is really nice! :D

Beef on hotplate.
The moment my mum opened the lid, my dad and I went "wooo!"
HAHAH seriously.
Same pitch also.

Crayfish laksa.
Please drool ^^

Baked oyster!
I ate the cheese and gave the oyster to my dad. LOL

Take a look at these disgusting prawns!!
It looks like someone smashed them with a hammer right?
Yuck, it kinda reminds me of orange cockroaches.
But guess what?
They're reeeeeeeally delicious, with cheese on top (:

These are just a few of the many many food we ate.
YAYYY I LIKE! :D

P/S. I gained 2kg after that dinner. Now I'm 46kg! Aiming for 50kg! :D

2009-06-22T21:18:00.001+08:00

A few days ago, I told my mum.

"I've found it. The one that will change my life forever once he/she leaves my life."

):

2009-06-21T00:45:00.001+08:00

Lion : Once I roar, the whole forest will shake with fear!

Pig : Big deal! Once I sneeze, the whole world will shake with fear!

2009-06-18T14:15:00.002+08:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last Beverage: plain water
2. Last phone call: aunt
3. Last text message: "sorry ah . :("
4. Last song you listened to: "Give me anything" by The Maine
5. Last time you cried: can't remember

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: never dated
7. Been cheated on: never dated therefore never cheated
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: never kissed
9. Lost someone special: yes
10. Been depressed: yes
11.Been drunk and threw up: never drank
List three favourite colours:
12. green
13. black
14. grey

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yes
16. Fallen out of love: yes
17. Laughed until you cried: yes
18. Met someone who changed you: no
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: no
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: never kissed

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: all
23. How many kids do you want to have: two
24. Do you have any pets: no
25. Do you want to change your name: yes but i won't
26. What did you do for your last birthday: celebration from my friends in school
27. What time did you wake up today: 1pm
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: using the internet
29. Name something you cannot wait for: food
30. Last time you saw your Mother: last night
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: to meet The Maine
32. What are you listening to right now: "Use somebody" by Kings of Leon
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: someone may not be as perfect as I thought he/she would be
35. Most visited webpage: my blog, facebook, hotmail, youtube, twitter
36. Whats your real name: Amanda
37. Nicknames: maize
38. Relationship Status: single
39. Zodiac sign: leo
40. Male or female?: female
41. Primary?: canberra
42. Secondary School?: yisuhn town
43. Poly/Ite/Jc/others?: not sure
44. Hair colour: black
45. Long or short: long, wanting it short
46. Height: 165cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: not now
48: What do you like about yourself?: I tolerate with nonsense pretty well
49. Piercings: one in each earlobe
50. Tattoos: no
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: for my lazy eye many years ago
53. First piercing: primary 3 for my earlobes
54. First best friend: jinjyue
55. First sport you joined: swimming
56. First vacation: to Malaysia
58. First pair of trainers: dont know

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: nothing
60. Drinking: nothing
61. I'm about to: finish up my geography corrections
62. Listening to: "Starstrukk" by 3OH!3
63. Waiting for: food

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: yes
65. Get Married?: yes
66. Career?: DJ!

Which IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: not sure
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: both
73. Sensitive or loud: loud
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: stomach
74. Hook-up or relationship: dont know
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: dont know

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: never kissed
77. Drank hard liquor: never drank
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes
79. Sex on first date?: never
80. Broken someone's heart: never dated
82. Been arrested: never
83. Turned someone down: yes
84. Cried when someone died: yes
85. Fallen for a friend?: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: no
87. Miracles: yes
88. Love at first sight: no
89. Heaven: always
90. Santa Claus: no
91. Kiss on the first date: no
92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: never dated
95. Did you sing today?: yes
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: never dated
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: dont know
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: dont know
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yes, very
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: yes

2009-06-17T21:58:00.003+08:00

Spent the entire afternoon with Angel Orrrr today.
And we met a very weird auntie :/
Tskkkkk.

I've lost the blogging bug already. (stating the obvious)
I seem to have lost interest in blogging.
So you can conclude that I'm posting this due to boredom.

Losing interest in blogging = Good thing for me :D

And guess what?
I still have homework! ):
Last entire week of the holiday is dedicated to AEM course already.
I didn't know it takes up so much time ):
They only reveal all these horrible information after we have signed up so we won't be able to back out.
Tskkk, evil.

HOMEWORK :
-E.maths worksheet
-A.maths worksheet (halfway)
-A.maths online quiz
-Chinese
-Social studies
-Biology notes
-1 geography mindmap
-Geography corrections

Have to complete chinese and geography corrections by tonight.

RAAAAAAAR! >:/

P/S. OMG STELLA PLEASE COME BACK ASAP!!!!

2009-06-16T03:13:00.003+08:00

Photo taken at 3.10am.
Suffering from insomnia now.
Gotta wake up at 10am tomorrow.
I'm gonna end up looking like a panda tomorrow.

...

Okay, okay.
I know I look like one already.
I'm gonna end up looking like something which is far worse looking than a panda.

:/

2009-06-15T21:59:00.003+08:00

During tuition today...

"In binomial theorem, there are 3 things you need to know. first is this equation *writes down*. Second is this equation *writes down*. Third is this equation *writes down*. For this question, you need to use this equation."

....

"Ok help me press blahblah and tell me the answer"

*stones there cause I was daydreaming*

*tutor looks at me, sigh and pressed it himself*

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THIS IS SERIOUSLY NOT WORKING OUT.
IT'S NOT HIS PROBLEM, BUT MINE.
MY STUPID SUCKY ASSHOLIC ATTITUDE.

WAKE UP LAH AMANDA!!
SEC 3 ALREADY LEH!
BUCK UP PLEASE!!!!!!
I KNOW YOU HAVE A BELOW AVERAGE BRAIN WHICH TAKES AGES TO ABSORB INFORMATION.
BUT THAT'S NO EXCUSE!!!!

>:/

2009-06-13T00:23:00.002+08:00

It's Claudia and I!

A-man-duh ! (: says:
oh yes and guess what
this morning after using listerene
i forgot to cover it
and i toppled it ):
left half a bottle nia
argh..

▪ whattodo says:
LOL!
You use listerine?
nice meh?

A-man-duh ! (: says:
yeah recently.
veryyyyyyyy laaaaa

▪ whattodo says:
la?
LOL

A-man-duh ! (: says:
la as in spicy.
but it's wrong to say it's spicy

▪ whattodo says:
no i was asking you if its la
LOL

A-man-duh ! (: says:
super minty.
and niceeee
the breath will smell damn nice

▪ whattodo says:
LOL, but i will cannot tahan the mint one.

A-man-duh ! (: says:
i tolerate hahaha.

▪ whattodo says:
cause i use toothpaste also sometimes cannot tahan

A-man-duh ! (: says:
HAHAHHA
THATS FUCKING RETARDED MAN!

▪ whattodo says:
WTH!
LOL!

A-man-duh ! (: says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA IM GONNA POST THIS UP
IT'S SO RETARDEDDDD!

▪ whattodo says:
i wil spit the colgate out and rinse then continue brushing
WHAT!!!!

A-man-duh ! (: says:
this is the first time i hear people say use toothpaste also cannot tahan one leh
HAHAHAA

▪ whattodo says:
TSSSSSSSKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!
i'm unique mah.
LOL!

2009-06-11T17:46:00.032+08:00

Yesterday I went with my mum and some relatives to Bishan to....

#1 go for Fish Spa

andddddddd

#2 go for prawninggggg! :D

Actually.. I didn't go for the fish spa.
I just sat around taking photos cause I find it super gross.

It sure looks F-nig gross, doesn't it?

Deston finds it ticklish and I sure can understand!

They were all frightened by the sudden bunch of fish swarming towards them. Hahahaa!

My mum, Shanshan and her husband, Benjamin!
They were at the adult secion of the spa because the fish there is bigger and are not meant for kids who have thinner skin.

Wow.. that's quite a mouthful.

Nice shot, eh?

Goosebump-inducingly gross!

Look at how scared Zhongqi (Cristabel) is!! :X
The moment she stepped in, all the fish left my uncle and aunt's feet and went to hers.
So I was saying that the fish wants to try a new flavour.
Hahaha so gross!!

The always camera-ready me!

After like 30min (they paid $13 for that), we decided to go for prawning!
Oh yes, they all really said their feet were really smooth after the spa.
And it's true! Seriously.
I could see that!
I wonder if they eat leg hair anot. LOL

Okay, anyway, on to prawning!

My mum and I shared a rod for 3 hours which costed $30.

!@#$%%^&*!!!

This is how the whole prawning place looks like, by the way.

Don't take my smile seriously here.
I was fucking annoyed because the dumb prawns just won't eat my bait.
Okay, wait. They're supposed to be smart for not doing that.

ShanShan and Benjamin. The masters at prawning.
They caught ALOTTTTTT.

Even my 11 year old cousin Yingxuan (in green), could catch like 7-8 of them!!

Deston and his dad, who is also my uncle.
Even 9 year old Deston could catch 7-8 prawns too!
He's damn pro also lah!
He knows how to remove the prawn from the hook and remove it's splinters.
Kudos.

YiZhang, Yima, Zhongqi and Benjamin.

AHAHHAAH WE'RE LIKE FALLING ASLEEP ALREADYYYYY!
THIS PHOTO NEVER FAILS TO CRACK ME UP!

But guess what, in the end I managed to catch 3! HAAHAHA.
I caught 1 by myself.
The other 2 were caught by my uncle's friend who was kind enough to kinda get the prawn stuck on the hook and let me bring the prawn up. LOL
So it looked like I was the one who caught them when it was in fact him.
I thanked him profusely and went around announcing that I caught 3 prawns.
HAHAHA!

Oh yes and guess what?
Because my relatives and I rented many many rods and didn't catch many prawns, the people there gave us a big bag of prawns for free.
Wow. Pitiful donation.
HAhahah.
Okay lah I know it's my fault lah! Zzzz.

Started BBQ-ing them!
They smelt damn good.

Deston staring at a big, juicy prawn.

One with its splinter!

Yummeh. The prawn is really sweet and salty because of the salt on the prawn's shell.

Ooooh... shiny hair!

That's a greedy person! hahah.

Hello, Deston, Desiree and their mum! :D

Cousins (:
I have like... 20++ more cousins.
Having so many cousins is a blessing!

Sitting like a hooligan here. Hahah.

Haha, Deston. Are you very tired??

They helped me alot in prawning! (:

Okay I shall end here!!
HAHAHAH SO ABRUPT!
But I don't know what to say already lah.

Except the fact that I'm seriously not cut out for prawning and that I had loads of fun.
Heee.
I reached home at like 1am...

BYE PEOPLE AND PLEASE TAG MY TAGBOARD IS DEPRIVED OF TAGS!

2009-06-10T12:44:00.009+08:00

I went to Claudia's house with Angel and Stella on Monday! :D

They're seriously fun people to hang out with.
Love them like hellllllllllllllllllll.

BLAHHHH!
Hahah, Claudia said that the blue candy Angel was eating is banned in Malaysia because it looks like a penis.
And that's not the end.
You can squeeze the handle so that the tip of the candy squirts out blueberry flavoured gel.
Doesn't it remind you of ejaculation?
Hahah so yeah, that's why it's banned.

Before I continue, sorry for my crudeness (:

Speechless

Then I forgot why, we suddenly tried doing jumpshots.
... and failed miserably.

Check out our awkward position.
I don't know which, but I look like I was trying to fly in one of them. LOL

Love you guys! I mean.. girls.

Favourite photo to end this anyhow-put-photos post! :D

Admit you like this photo too!

2009-06-09T14:30:00.003+08:00

DAMN ITTTTT!! THIS IS JUST SO EMBARRASSING!
AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!

My mum gave us permission to order Macdonalds for lunch.
So my brother ordered for me and himself.

Then 5min later, my bro said his tummy hurts and that I would have to go get the food from the delivery man myself.
URGH! I hate it.
But never mind, no choice.

And guess what?
After like.. say.. 15min, someone called our house phone.

Anonymous: Hello, is this unit 16-65?
Me : *about to say "sorry, wrong number" then I paused* Uhhh.. yes.
Anonymous : The deliveryman is outside your house waiting already.
Me : What?!?! OHHHH! OKOK SORRY!!!!

*dashes to the door, opens it"

Me : Sorrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
Deliveryman : :D

ARGH SO EMBARRASSING!!!

P/S. Why do crazy/random/nonsensical/funny/ridiculous things always seem to happen to me?! People who know me should agree too, yeah? :/

2009-06-08T23:14:00.001+08:00

I'm having a long long chat with Claudia on msn.
It's seriously duper longggggggg and full of interesting content.
Hahah I managed to get her hooked on The Maine too.
HAHAHA! :D
YAY!

And... I really feel like being caucasian..
Because you get to meet your favourite band/solos so often!

All you get here in Singapore is...
Farenheit, JJ Lin, etc.
=.=
(no offence, although you're already offended.)

I wanna be caucasian! T.T
Real badlyyyyyy!!!

2009-06-08T12:38:00.001+08:00

Damn it, I'm feeling nauseous. ):
My chest feels really tight.
Urrrrgggghhhhh

I'm meeting Angel and Stella later.
And we're heading to Claudia's house!
Yipeeeeeee! :D

I can't stop staring at my phone.
Cause it has John O' Callaghan as the wallpaper!
OH MYYYYYYY!!!

2009-06-07T18:19:00.004+08:00

Ohmygoodness, Peimin!!

You make me wanna murder you for introducing me to 'The Maine'!!
Hahahah :D

John O' Callaghan! (lead vocals)
*drools*

2009-06-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

I know I've been hesitating for numerous day or even weeks.
But up till this point, I'm still hesitating!!
Some says long, some says short.

Hmmmm.

2009-06-05T20:34:00.007+08:00

Went to Plaza Sing yesterday with Stella and I spent $9.50 on DIY stuffs.
*pounds heart*

It's a pencil holder!

And I bought this extra rocking horse as decoration.

OH YES AND GUESS WHAT I JUST FINISHED PAINTING THEM!
WOO! :D I'M HAPPY!
NOW I KNOW WHY STELLA LOVES DIY STUFFS SO MUCH!

Anywayyyyy. Nonsense photos taken that day. Haha.

Hehehe.

Oh yes and on our way there, right, we saw this really hot guy at around our age.
We were debating whether he's indian, angmoh or mixed.
And we deduced that he's mixed blood!
Angmoh+chinese!
He's freaking hot please! And he has a skateboard! LOLLLLL!!!

But Stella say he not good-looking leahhh ):
I don't care man, he is!!!
HAHAHAH! :X

My heart still aches when I think about the $9.50 spent.
Arghhh ):
But you know what?
I think I'm gonna go back there and get more stuff..

STELLA CHEW!!!! >:/

Hehe.

2009-06-04T20:01:00.002+08:00

CHOCOLATE TAU HUAY!!!

AND IT'S FREAKING DELICIOUS OKAY I CAN STILL REMEMBER ITS TASTE!!
AHHHHHHHH SUPER NICE LAH OMGZXSZXSZX.
CHOMPCHOMP ROCKS :D

P/S. I haven't post about Pulau Semakau! Shit!

2009-06-03T20:12:00.003+08:00

I went out with 2 lovely girls today! :D
And I managed to complete 3 chapter of Physics.
Happy happy happy! :D

Oh yes, remember to read my previous post and give me your opinion!
Thank you!

*waves white flag*
wanted to, hesitated, and finally, gave up.
i'm waving my arms in surrender.

2009-06-02T23:13:00.002+08:00

OR

Tag me your opinion, I need your opinions badly, man!
I'm serious this time!
I'm annoyed with long hair already.

2009-06-01T23:53:00.003+08:00

I reckon it's time to do up a proper post. Hahah.

Have you guys ever tried this flavour?
I don't think it's in Singapore YET.
My parents bought it from Malaysia and it's freaking nice! :D
LOL, actually, I'm not sure if I'm being a mountain tortoise anot.
So if I am, just pretend I'm not and play along ok?

That's my cousin, Jolee with a 1 litre bottle of... of...
bubbbles? LOL
Is there a term for the liquid you use to blow bubbles?
I have limited vocabularies.
Hahah.

Hahah, even the.. the.. okay, what is this called, seriously?
Even the ______ is so big! LOL!

Hmmm, guess what this is.
Tag me with your answer (:
No harm trying!
Winner will win a smile from me.
Hahah.
Just guess okay?
:D

2009-05-31T22:21:00.002+08:00

Sorry, Mum.
For the big big quarrel we had this afternoon.
I admit I was being unreasonable.
Sorry ):

And good luck for your exam tomorrow!
Do well, get your certificate.

With your certificate,
you can then draw a higher salary ~~and be able to spend more money on me!~~

ALL THE BEST MUM! :D

And of course, all the best for the people taking their MT Olevels tomorrow! :D

P/S. My mum's taking her accounts exam, not Olevels =.=

2009-05-30T22:01:00.002+08:00

I'm a little upset now so I don't know what to say.
I envy people who can put their feelings into words so well.

So here's some song recommnedations.
Very nice and ~~vulgar~~.

They're really damnnnn nice.
Been listening to them years ago from Eminem's album, Encore.
Just get used to the vulgarities and you'll love it.
:D

2009-05-28T20:58:00.002+08:00

Cross country was damn fun!
This Stella uh, keep asking me to run! OMGGG~~~
Hahaha.
Then I anyhow made some nonsense up saying that running is not good for our body.
Ran about a quarter and walked for the rest.

Then we took 882 to Sun Plaza.
Still remember walking all the way to Sun Plaza from Sembawang Park with Angel, CLaudia, Qiuru, Yunting and Yiying.
Can die man, seriously.
Okay, like you care. Haha.

Anyway, let me share about the nightmare I had a few nights ago!

START OF NIGHTMARE :

Okay, there was me, Joanna, CuiShan, Timothy and about 3 to 4 other people whom I can't recall.
LOL, weird combination eh?
Okay, continue.
We were in a small, empty room with 4 walls.
We were all sitting against the wall so there was an empty space in the middle.
We were in the room to play a game, a haunted game.

Somehow, in one way or another, we knew the rules of the game already.
We knew that we had to raise up our arm with our fist clenched immediately after we hear a scream.
And when we hear a scream, it means that a ghost will be coming into the room.
Freaky righttttt?!

Okay, then we were all waiting. We were all very nervous.
Then suddenly, we heard a piercing, shrilly scream!
A scream which sounded like the female ghost in the toilet of Hotel626.
You know? The one which we have to take photos of in the toilet.
Yeah, the scream sounded exactly the same, so you can imagine.

I still remember Joanna (who was sitting beside me) being the first to raise up her arm with her fist clenched.
So everyone, including me, followed her.
I closed my eyes and waited nervously.
I really could feel myself trembling in the nightmare loh!
The ghost was coming in any time.

Then suddenly, the ghost spoke to us in her shrilly tone! A bit ridiculous here.
The ghost was saying "I'm in the room~~~~~~" and then she cackled.
Freaking scary okay.
I continued to keep my eyes shut tightly.

After a few minutes, the ghost spoke again.
"I'm beside youuuuuuuuu~"
Then I opened my eyes and the next thing I saw and heard was Cuishan screaming at the top of her lungs.
Then I suddenly plunged into consciousness.

Okay, freaking scary okay.
That nightmare felt really real.
And I realised I was perspiring after I woke up loh.
Eeeeeeek!
I hate nightmares!
And this is scariest one I've ever had!

2009-05-27T21:44:00.005+08:00

Previous post deleted.
If you have not read it, good for you.
If you did, sorry, it was nothing nice right?

Trip to Pulau Semakau was freaking funnnnnn!
I love sitting on the boat!
So freaking cool.
Will never ever forget that feeling (:
Plenty of photos taken will be uploaded asap!

Cross Country tomorrow!
Still remember walking all the way with Claudia last year.
So we got 'scolded' by some of the people stationed at different parts of the route.
Right, Claudia? Haha :D

And you know what?
I think I'm gonna walk all the way again this year.
Haha :X

Tomorrow will be a better day!

2009-05-25T23:33:00.002+08:00

I'm so so so so tired, people!
And I'm veryyyyyy stressed.
I'm stressed because I keep thinking!

I think of how I'm gonna complete the horrendously thick stack of assignments in such a short period of time.
First week of holidays dedicated to A.maths remedial already.
Miss Tan hasn't arranged it yet.
But I know I'm gonna be one of the chosen ones.
Enough said.

Last week of holidays dedicated to AEM course at Singapore Poly.
Man, I do regret joining it now.
Hopefully Miss Tan will allow me to back out :X

Okay, Pulau Semakau tomorrow! It's a landfill, haha.
Hope it doesn't stink there.

Goodbye, my friend

2009-05-22T21:11:00.004+08:00

Thank goodness it's Friday!
The day I've been waiting for the entire week.

Holiday assignments are here.
Sigh..

Mdm Chan : I have a holiday assignment for you all. No, wait... holidays are not meant for assignments. So I'll call it a revision worksheet.
Daniel : Wow, thanks Mdm Chan. That makes it so much better.

HAHA!
Okayyy I'm still damn disappointed in my results.
Sorry for making you guys read such nonsense.
):

Okay, Safra with lovely people tomorrow.
Hope that'll make my day.

BYE!

2009-05-20T19:41:00.002+08:00

Do me a favour...
and stop asking me about my results. ):
I know you guys are just curious.
But it makes me feel more loser-ish.
So yeah, sorry ):

Results were not good.
In fact, horrible.
I ought not to be sad because I didn't work hard.
I can achieve so much better.
But I still am, cause all I'm left with now, are regrets.
Why didn't I put in more effort in my studies?
Why didn't I realise how important it is to study hard?
Why only now? ):

Many people think I'm a studious and crazy-about-studies girl.
But I'm actually not, seriously.
I procastinate so damn much that I despise myself.
Sometimes I feel so confident that I don't bother to work hard.
I waste so much time doing useless things.
I HATE WHAT I AM!!!

I super duper envy people who have so much discipline in them.
Kudos to whoever are.
Seriously, I respect/admire you!
I can never ever be like that.
I am too...
Damn I can't find any adjective to fit in.

Okay, one comforting thought was that my mum consoled me!
Like goodness me. Hahah.
No offence, but it came as a bigggg bigggg bigggg surprise to me.
~~cause she never used to~~

But thanks mum, for telling me that this is not what I'm capable of.
For telling me that I can do so much better than that.
For telling me that as long as I work hard, I can do well.
For advising me to revise each time after every chapter learnt.
For telling me that I still have the EOYS to catch up.
For telling me that it's not too late to start working hard only now.

(':

2009-05-18T00:17:00.008+08:00

Okayyyyy... I might be a little late on this.
But just wanna share this song with you guys.

I just can't get this song outta my head.
It's not a small deal but a big one because it's from Taylor Swift!!
I don't really like Taylor Swift cause I find that SOME of her songs are rather lame and retarded.

Aiya, I don't know why!
But this song is really catchy and I never seem to get sick of it!
Yeah, please gasp!

P/S. And this song really speaks for the "not very attractive in looks" schoolgirls eh?

2009-05-17T16:21:00.002+08:00

Peopleeeeee.
I am damn troubled, worried and frustrated.
OMG, how?!
What do I do? ):
Please don't ignore my pleas like how you guys always do when I post about them.

:'(

2009-05-16T21:27:00.005+08:00

Northpoint with my girls today!
Boring venue, yes.
But with them, nothing is ever boring, seriously! (:

Someone came along and the outcome turned out like that :X

Hoho, finally. Many people were walking in and out!

I say the same thing too! :D

Mesa love this photo! LOL, trying to talk like JarJarBinks.

The floor is dirty, Angel! Haha (:

Hehhhh. :D

Retarded Wormie!
I kinda like smiling w/o teeth now.
LOL, off-topic.

Pretty Bestie!

Pretty people who never fail to make me laugh :D

Hahah, I don't know if I should post this but I think I will.
This cranky auntie came along and asked us if the salon (the one near the bubble tea shop in the new northpoint) is where all the superstars go to.
We were like "huhhh?"
And she started going on about how much she wants to have a superstar hairdo like Michelle Chia.
ROFL?!
I was afraid I may burst out laughing so I just walked away and laughed my fill while the 2 of them had to stay there to listen to the auntie. :X
Ooops!

Hahah, I shall end this post really abruptly now.
My favourite photo of the day to end (:

Love my babesssssssssss! :DDD

2009-05-15T01:01:00.005+08:00

Hmmm.. it's kinda good, no?
Drawn with mouse by Timothy.
Thanks Timo! Hahahah.
There are like somemore drawings of other people in his blog.
Go check if your face is there.
Hahaha.

For bored people who are interested :

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
my pic should be easy to draw.
cause i didnt make any difficult expressions.
just my tongue. LOL

JOHN says:
The tongue is hard,... Haha...

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: writes:
(a drawing of tongue which is just a 'U' shape)

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
like that lah

[c=15]zhiyan[/c] writes:
(her drawing of my tongue, but it's grey)

neohtp (JENESYS!) says:
no that simple..

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
hahah grey tongue!

[c=15]zhiyan[/c] says:
like drawing a graph only mah

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
HAHHA SMILEY CURVE!

neohtp (JENESYS!) says:
Cause must use ratio to see the proportion between the head and the tongue

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
u reminded me of Amaths ):

[c=15]zhiyan[/c] says:
EH TSEPIN!

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
STOP IT, TSEPIN =.=
get over it!

[c=15]zhiyan[/c] says:
SHUT UP TSEPIN

neohtp (JENESYS!) says:
eek >.<

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
hahah

[c=15]zhiyan[/c] says:
john not done w/ his drawing

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
my senior said that i look like ghost doll in those photos.
=.=
with my eyerings.

neohtp (JENESYS!) says:
eyerings?
what is that?

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
black slades under your eyes

[c=15]zhiyan[/c] says:
u gt eye rings?
oh

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
super duper heavy
and obvious ):

neohtp (JENESYS!) says:
heavy is good. prevents you from sleeping.. cause the bottom part keeps dropping

[c=15]zhiyan[/c] says:
wth

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
shit you tsepin
you..
you...
uh

neohtp (JENESYS!) says:
correct right?

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
okay lah true
but i still feel tired all the time
SHIT YOU TSEPINNNN
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

neohtp (JENESYS!) says:
nani? o_o...

[c=15]zhiyan[/c] says:
yea.. abit like ghost.. :/

IlIl Amanda IlIl [c=41]♥[/c] The White Tie Affair (: says:
hahah yeah ):
imma post this convo up

2009-05-14T23:54:00.006+08:00

#1

#2

YAYYYYYYYY! :D

I wouldn't consider them my 'idols'.

Makes me feel desperate and loser-ish.

Okay, I admire them, ALOT.

And that's all.

:D

2009-05-14T13:18:00.003+08:00

I've been talking about how much I'm anticipating today.
The end of exams.
Aka, the day to fun and freedom.

But now... :/
Amaths was horrible.
Horribly, horribly done.
It's either a fail, or a just pass.
I'm serious.
I lost over 20-30 marks already.
Gasp please.

Suddenly, I wish today's not the end of exams.
Suddenly, I wish there could be a retest for today's Amaths paper.

):

2009-05-12T20:26:00.002+08:00

Do my hair really look different? O.o
I'm thinking of going back to bangs, you know...

Hmm.. Emaths Paper 2 today was a killer to me.
You know what?
My tutor was really mean when he was going through Amaths with me last evening.

He said in chinese :

"Please ah, do your revision before your exam if not I will have no eyes to see your results."

Thanks -.-

Let me think.. Oh!
I wanna change my url. LOL
Don't groan/moan/curse/swear/shout/scream/moo/bark/oink/meow!
I've been stuck with this url for ages already and you know it! :P
Change to what, I'm not sure yet.
Shall ponder over it after the exams.

Oh yes, speaking of the exams,
I'm just 2 papers away from fun and freedom! :D
Physics and Amaths.

God, I hate them.
My worst subjects of all.
):

How ironic.
And here I am indulging myself in the internet.

Okay, I shall go complete my revision for Phsyics.
And then move on to Amaths.
So that my tutor will have eyes to look at my results.

BYE!
Love you, lovely taggers! :D

2009-05-09T01:32:00.002+08:00

Just a few friendly reminders of how I look like.
Considering the fact that some of you guys might forgot since I've not posted any photos for ages already.

LOL

2009-05-08T20:42:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling unhappy!
Why am I always like that? ):
and why are you guys always like that?

Damn it, my bro's back.
He's gonna force me to watch Starwars with him again =.=
Okay bur I've gotta admit that it's really nice.
Natalie Portman's really pretty.
And the little Anakin Skywalker is not cute anymore!
Okay don't mind my blabbering.

Chemistry paper yesterday was kinda okay.
I'm not the type who claims that that is easy and this is easy.
Cause it all comes down to what you get at the end of the day.
If you said that it's easy and you get the opposite results, how embarrassing.
LOL

Biology is a fail. Did I mention that?
I don't know, I just think that that's something essential for you guys to know.
If Ms Pou is gonna flash our results on the screen someday and I get the lowest result, 3/7, please don't stare at me okay?
It'll freak me out.
Thank you (:

What else... hmmn, I've been telling Stella that I really miss choir.
Yes I do. Singing, Ms Jessie, Seniors, Juniors.
THE END, no more (:
Yes, I don't miss HER =.=

What did you guys get for Mothers' Day?
I got something for my Mum with Claudia today.
I personally find it veryyyy nice and cool. Heh.
Don't worry, Claudia.
Your mum will cherish it (:

Yay, Mothers' Day lunch in church tomorrow.
Good food, okay!
I don't know what it's called.
But I call it "Jia Dou" which is in Hokkien.

Hmmmmmm I wanna end here.
I'm still unhappy ):
How how how?!
Do you care? ):

P/S. I don't Alison to be out! ):

2009-05-07T23:25:00.000+08:00

Oh my goodness, Claudia!
This is 3OH!3's logo leh!
Super cool right?

Hahah sorry, being random. :/

2009-05-05T20:47:00.004+08:00

Can you call me a genius?

Cause I am one, really.

Only a genius would mistake Source B as Source A in a Social Studies paper, right?
Only a genius would think that the paper ends at 9am when it actually ends at 9.15am, right?
Only a genius would rush through the whole paper, thinking that there's not enough time when there's actually another 15 min and end up with shitty answers right?

RIGHT.

In conclusion, I believe that the most important factor that describes Amanda is :

GENIUS-TIC!

ha, ha

2009-05-03T16:07:00.001+08:00

OMFG I JUST REALISED I DID SOMETHING HORRIBLE!!!!

DID YOU GUYS TAKE OFFENCE AT THE MY "LINKS" PART?

THE "BLOGS I BOTHER TO READ, SORRY." PART?!

OMFG I DIDNT MEAN THAT WAY YOU KNOW!

I MEAN LIKE.. BLOGS THAT I FIND INTERESTING.

DOESN'T MEAN THAT IF I DONT LINK YOU, I DONT BOTHER ABOUT YOU.

OMFG OMFG DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN?

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

*faints*

2009-05-01T17:48:00.002+08:00

1) I hope you'll treat me the same way you treat your other friends. Why am I always the one being treated unfairly among the others? Just because you know I will never ever flare up at you? That's not enough.. it's unfair ):

2) I hope you'll give me a chance. I don't wanna be useless, you know? ):

3) I hope we'll be friends again. Just a hi-bye friendship is good enough for me, seriously. It's scary to think that we were once friends who could play together crazily and childishly when now, all we do when we see each other is - pretend we did not.

4) I hope you'll do your duty as a ______. When I'm sad, what do you do? Nothing except making me feel even worse than before. Thank you very much.

5) I hope that one day, you can console/comfort me. Why do you always change the subject when I'm confiding in you? Why do you always, in turn, talk about your own troubles when I start confiding in you? Of course I don't mind cheering a friend up, but do you do that to me after I've done that to you? ):

6) I hope our gap will closen up. I really wanna be good friends with you like how we used to be. We're so similar, so alike, in almost all aspects that it scares me. And I understand that it's hard to find someone with so many similarities as you. I did. Hopefully, we'll be like how we were in the last 2 years. (:

7) I hope you'll regain your trust in me again. You said you did, and I sincerely and really hope it's like that. Yesterday's heart-to-heart talk with you was simply enlightening. Thank you so much (: I hope you'll trust me the way I trust you with all my heart (:

2009-04-24T20:33:00.002+08:00

I am feeling kinda relieved now.
Cause I studied like madddd for Social Studies and Biology yesterday for today's tests.
Hahah, as usual, I can only study when I'm forced to.
(:

Won't be online till after the mid-years.
Awww ):

So little people reading my blog now!
But that's okay, examinations are still going on.
LOL (self-comforting)

Okay see you guys after the mid-years.
All the best and good luck for it, guys! :D

2009-04-20T22:58:00.001+08:00

And what rights in the entire world do you have to care?
None, so just give it up, Amanda!!

_________________________________________________________

You make me feel treasured.
And you make me feel like dirt.
Who am I to you, seriously.
No more games, please.

2009-04-19T14:03:00.001+08:00

ROFL A MUST WATCHHHHH! :D

2009-04-17T23:15:00.003+08:00

Let's all think back about what Ms Jessy said before SYF today.
It's not about getting gold, silver or bronze.
It's about enjoying ourselves and putting in our utmost best effort.

One statement she made that I really have to nod my head at :

"There are many, many things way beyond our control."

I believe many people don't realise this and thus we get so easily depressed over little things and start blaming ourselves for not doing better.

Doing well in what you can do well is what that counts, isn't it? (:

A big big big thankyou to those sweethearts who wished YTVC good luck for today.
It's super duper nice of you all!
<3

Photos with my beloved seniors will be up tomorrow.

Toodles!

P/S. We got a silver. Goal's a gold. But that's not important anymore. Let's focus on the next important thing, people! Our studies! (:

2009-04-16T22:46:00.002+08:00

Well, things to update on!

Firstly, I am super proud of myself! I realised that I'm not an internet addict at all! Serious. I can go without the computer for days without feeing uneasy or not myself. Gee... I didn't know I was so great! LOL :X

Secondly, I've been working hard! Hahah, like finally. Although I've gotta admit, it's because there are so many tests coming up and that's why I'm studying. Hence, I conclude for myself that

No Tests = No Studying

Which also leads me to the conclusion that teachers should give more tests! And I'm seriously just kidding. LOL. After tomorrow's SYF, I'll be much more free. So I can concentrate more on my studies. GO ME! :D

Hmmm, what else...
OH YES, I don't need to fight with my brother over the computer again! Yes, he's still serving his National Service but he does come back during the weekends. He bought a new huge-ass computer from the recent IT show. Over 1k and he paid everything by himself O.o I used to tell him that the computer is bought by our parents and not his so he has no rights to stop me from using it. Now, I have absolutely nothing to say :/ Oh, and so, he passed me his old one =.= Thanks bro. Never mind, as long as I have my own computer in my own personal space (:

Tomorrow's choir SYF'09! For my anonymous readers, sorry! LOL I know it's like.. I have never ever posted anything about my cca or about the upcoming SYF. And then I just suddenly go "SYF TOMORROW!" LOL. I hope I won't screw up and that YTVC can reach its goal. I'm sure tomorrow will be a day to remember, irregardless of whether we can reach our goal. Because I know we'll have fun (: I hope I can see fellow primary school mates too!

XUEYING! KEEP A LOOKOUT FOR ME LIKE HOW I'M GONNA KEEP ONE FOR YOU! :D

Adam Lambert rocks please. I'm listening to his rendition of "Mad World". It can totally drive me nuts. But David Archuleta FTW forever :D

Kris Allen is hot, but he's really small-sized. Even smaller than Ryan Seacrest!

Ah, lengthy post this is. Did you read all the way till here?
If you did, you'll live long.
Trust me (:

Might be ages before the next post will be up.
Ahhh..

Toodles! (: Wait for my next post! Hee.

2009-04-10T20:38:00.004+08:00

I am still wallowing in self-pity for not being able to see David Archuleta live in Singapore.
Boohoo...
Luckily kind people posted videos of it on youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LIMZTXyMGFA

Touch My Hand.

DAMN IT.
I was hoping he wouldn't perform that song cause I'll be damn jealous if he does.
And he did! ):

LOL check out the lyrics if you don't know why.

Saw you from a distance
Saw you from the stage
Something about the look in your eyes
Something about your beautiful face
In a sea of people
There is only you
I never knew what the song was about
But suddenly now I do

Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand

Can’t let the music stop
Can’t let this feeling end
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again
Can’t let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again

I see the sparkle of a million flashlight
sA wonderwall of stars
But the one that’s shining out so bright is the one right where you are
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Can’t let the music stop
Can’t let this feeling end
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again
Can’t let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again

Saw you from the distance
Saw you from the stage
Something about the look in your eyes
Something about your beautiful face

Can’t let the music stop
Can’t let this feeling end
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again
Can’t let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again

Can’t let the music stop
Can’t let this feeling end
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again
Can’t let the music stop
Until I touch your hands
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand

Yeah, yeah, yeah

--------------------------------------------------------------------------

Totally fits the whole thing eh?
Wahhhh more reasons for me to go ARGHHH.
LOL, bye I'm gonna go cry already.

Kidding.

2009-03-31T23:31:00.002+08:00

RULES: It’s harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real…nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use DIFFERENT answers. You CANNOT use any word twice and you can’t use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name: Amanda
2. A four-letter word: Army
3. A boy’s name: Alastair (My bro's! Chim right?)
4. A girl’s name: Adeline
5. An occupation: Architect
6. A color: Jade green
7. Something you’ll wear: ARMOUR! HAHAH!
8. A food: Abalone
9. Something found in the bathroom: Adjustable shower head (My mum went to the extent of looking it up in a dictionary =.=)
10. A place: Admiralty
11. A reason for being late: "Ants infested my house."
12. Something you’d shout: AIYO!!
13. A movie title: Angels Fall
14. Something you drink: Alcohol
15. A musical group: All-American Rejects (Is there a 'the' in front? I thought about this for a very long time!)
16. An animal: Armadillo
17. A street name: Alexandra Road (Credits to Mum!)
A type of car: Audi (Credits to Mum!)
19. The title of a song: About A Girl

Do it if you want to, it's fun!
Thankyou Peimin for tagging me this quiz. It's really interesting!
I'm the first person somemore. Haha.

Anyway, super duper THANK YOUUUUUU to those who tagged me regarding me previous post.
I really appreciate the fact that people do understand.
(:

2009-03-30T22:31:00.003+08:00

Just now, Mum and I had a long long chat over supper.
Such chances are kinda rare already, I must say.
Anyway, we talked about christianity.
Well, some of you might be going "=.= i'm so gonna stop reading this."
That's up to you guys, I don't really care.
I shall just continue.
I bared my feelings about that topic to Mum.
I have complete faith in God, I believe that His existence is true and that He is in Heaven, waiting for us.
But there's just something stopping me from going to church.
As much as I really want to be enthusiastic in my worship in Him, I dread going to church.
I know I'm such a bleaughhhhh christian.
Or maybe I'm not even fit to be labelled as one?
It's not because of rising up early even on Sundays.
It's not because I feel that it's a waste of time.
It's not because I need Sundays to rush out my homework.
It's not because I can go out with my friends on Sundays.
But it's because... I'm too shy, I guess.
Seriously, you guys might go "Huh?! Amanda?! Shy?!"
Yessss I am super shy in church.
It's like there's 2 different people living in me.
I don't dare to do what a mature, developed christian would do.
Like.. sing out loud in worship. I don't dare to.
Pray out loud to God. I don't dare to.
Cry out loud to God. I don't dare to.
And going to church means doing these things, isn't it?
Even if it isn't so, it's just a matter of time, right?
I really really wanna go to church.
I really wanna be a matured, enthusiastic christian.
I want to spread the word of God.
I want to be baptised.
I want to go to Heaven to meet God.
But these things are holding me back.
I know they sound lame, or maybe you might think they're excuses.
But seriously, they're not.
Believe me, will you?
Anyway... Mum told me that by faith alone, it's not enough...
I always thought that everything was just by grace, through faith.
So it's not that simple...
Oh well...

Anyway, thank you guys so much if you read all the way up till this point.
I'll be going back to church on Sunday.
For your info, I haven't been to church like say.. 2-3 months?
That's like a super long period.
I hope things will go on smoothly.
And that I'll return home, yearning for more Sundays like that.
Wish me luck okay people?
Thank you! (:

P/S. Please tag me to tell me if you have read this entire post. It's rather neccessary. Thank you!